Mass Comma Mama

2006-03-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

Finally_

Here, I mark the end of our three year "survival" course. Finally, it's over.

I think it's time to mark the end of my journey here too, since I don't blog on this ground anymore.

Still, I'll maintain the links so I can read others' journals as and when I like. In any case, I'll like to be updated on the lives of the people I care for.

I have another journal around. I'll probably leave it around someday, sometime. Or get it from me. ;)

Thank you, to some true buddies of mine who been through the tough times with me, and some funky buddies who make me laugh all day. Also thank you to those stepped on me and backstabbed me. It'll make me a stronger person.

All the best to everyone! :)

2006-01-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

Twozerozerosix_

Happy 2006 people! May your good year be filled with lots of love, happiness and good health!

The break was well-deserving. I was in total enjoyment mood! I went to Ministry of Sound on New Year's day (and I saw Ancella!). It's super fun.

I can't type a lot now 'cause my hand hurts loads. It's ironic - I haven't updated here for so long and when I finally feel like to, I can't really type.

In any case, it's back to school week. Brace for the last two months!

2005-12-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

Back from heaven_

Ready to go!

My cousin couldn't believe it!

Supper at Queen Park before we.....

...set off to Ipoh!

The morning.

2005-11-24T11:30:00.000+08:00

Ayuthaya_

Our main source of transport.

That dog waiting for more food from my Ah Ma.

On the way to lunch.

2005-11-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

It's My McDonalds!_

I just realise that if I don't finish putting up the pictures I took in Thailand, I won't be able to put up the pictures I'll be bringing back from Malaysia!

:)

2005-11-15T14:11:00.000+08:00

Disgusting_

To Elyn and other people who hate disgusting stuff, please stop reading from now. What you are going to see next is good enough to make you... enough said.

My blind fish

Do you know how it looks like now?

Only the head is left. YUCK!

And another dead fish with a broken fin.

I'm so traumatised now I'm having a terrible headache. I feel really disgusted right now. I don't know which fish ate which fish. All I know is that, even when the fish is dead now, the other alive fishes still eat it.

MY GOD! My sister and I got so traumatised we cried. Mum used the newspaper to cover the fish tank, while waiting for Dad to come home and throw the dead fishes away, and let the alive fishes go.

Disgusting fishes. YUCK.

2005-11-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

The beauty_

They do this as a living.

The nice fried wanton bee hoon I had.

The fried wantons were so nice I wanted to buy for munchies. Yet, after much difficulties communicating with the auntie, she said, "NO!". So sad, 'cause I still miss the wantons. :(

2005-11-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

Three weeks ago_

The floating market was a great eye-opening experience.

You should be there to hear me scream my guts off too, when the motor sampan was rocking like hell.

I don't really like school.

2005-11-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

Good morning!_

The day starts around 6am in Thailand, about an hour earlier than Singapore. But 6am in Thailand is equals to 7am in Singapore. It balances out somehow.

I miss the sound of the busy streets, the haziness caused by the dust, the messy yet colourful roads I got to see.

In all, I still miss Thailand.

2005-10-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

Khao San_

The place where I had my SGD$8 (inclusive of tips) Thai massage.
The place where we spent half an hour shopping only 3 stalls.
The place where I first bought something.
The place where I wish I spent more time but didn't manage to.

I miss Khao San!

2005-10-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

Tuk tuk_

I missed it!!!!!!

2005-10-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

In loving memory_

I have a blind fish, if some of you remember. Although Dad wanted to set it free, I pitied it and decided to keep rearing it.

Today, it did a very disgusting thing. So disgusting I didn't know how to describe the whole feeling.

It ate up my bigger fish. I couldn't believe it until I saw it with my own eyes.

It was a GOLDfish. The scales were floating on the water in the fish tank. Yuckies! I was spooked when I tried to carry the remains. In the end, my Dad had to do the job. Thanks Pa!

I think, that dead fish must have been the one who ate up the blind fish's eyes. So, the blind fish was looking for its eyes in the dead fish.

Must be it.

2005-10-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

Grandeur_

The Grand Palace in Bangkok. Simply fascinating.

But I still miss shopping.

2005-10-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

Colours on the road_

Pink, orange, yellow, green. I love the bright colours on the cabs. I think they add colours to the hazy roads. :)

But I never got to sit in it.

2005-10-19T15:10:00.000+08:00

Great food_

The char siew rice they sell is fabulous. So licking fingers! The thick sweet gravy scores the most points. SEDAP!!!!!

Second best; it costs only 25bht - which is about SGD$1.04.

I don't feel like touching the char siew rice in food courts anymore.

2005-10-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

Back to norm_

Our land.

2005-10-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

Leaving on an aeroplane_

I am going to Thailand from 14 to 17 October to spend my 20th birthday. I'm now in a delirious state of mind; I can't believe I'm finally going for my holidays.

This feels damn good. Ah!

2005-10-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

Notice_

Who's interested in doing volunteer work;

6th November - bringing children to a farm in Malaysia

13th November - accompanying old folks at some event ( I think)?

I had my fair share of fun today, at a children's home. It's this kind of simple thing that makes me appreciate life and what I have more. :)

2005-10-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

Photos up_

At Lili jie's place:

My niece, Chelsia.

My nephew, Xavier.

Chel and Beatrice.

Chel wants to stick her thumb.

Sexy, no? Haha.

At work, my P2s and P3:

Xan (King)

Gene, the elder brother of Xan.

Brothers.

We just want fun.

Aren't they cute?

Xan(nie)

Gene(nie)

My 7.30pm class.

The little boys....

....I'll never forget, and always miss. :)

2005-10-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

Bits_

It's like one more month before school starts again (and for the last time) and I realise I haven't accomplished much of what I wanted to.

Ice skating? Cheese macaroni? Visit Wils? Thailand trip? Batam getaway? Cycling? Tanning?......

Day after day, I sit at home (if I'm not going anywhere, doing anything), watch teevee, eat, drink, sleep, surf, gossip, chat... It's nothing constructive at all!!!!! (It's just constructing fats in my body, grr.)

I rented a car over the weekend and brought my family out for a ride. We went to Geylang Serai and the Hari Raya lights were marvellous. I've only seen CNY and Xmas lights but never of any other occasion. We also been to Geylang, and watched prostitutes. It was quite bad, because my eyes must be on the road and not on the "chicks".

Mount Faber was also one of our many destinations - and the scenary almost took my life away. At such great heights, I could feel the world in my hands. I was ecstatic.

I was driving my boredom away, and it was a well-spent weekend. All I need is to spend more time with the people I truly miss and I haven't met for donkey years.

Tomorrow it's Puasa first day - I have to train myself to resist food in front of Muslim people. :) I always, ALWAYS without fail, offer them food - at the wrong time.

2005-09-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

Addiction_

I know Halawah's a coffee freak. I see coffee, I think of Halawah, and vice versa.

Now, let me introduce my addiction..........Hot chocolate!
So if you

1) want to bribe me
2) suck up to me
3) want to get into my good books ( I don't know why also)

just get me a cup of hot chocolate. No need expensive one, 7-11's $1.90 is equally strong to perk me up and make me feel sexy. Hah!

*(You know why I use brown.)

2005-09-27T03:12:00.000+08:00

Crush of the past_

I did like a certain Mr Brown in school recently. (please note the past tense, thank you.)
He's not the Mr Brown Mr Brown. He's the, he's MY Mr Brown - thanks to Kelly and Dan.

Very much.

In any case, it's really funny how feelings developed overnight. It's also funny, how a particular person appears in front of you all the time, but you never realise his/her presence or know who he/she is. Open your eyes big big okay.

In case you want to know, my advice is, you won't want to know. It's already over (I'm so glad it's break!) and it's time to move on. So, where's my next target?

2005-09-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

At bowling alley_

Strangers? Dan and I.

Strangers no more! "Yo Dan, you are a strong man!"

Me showing my poweress! (The ground didn't shake.)

Breast grabber? Josh and I.

Claws. I thought I wanted to roll Kelly.

Josh, ready?

Sign of victory?

Kelly looked constipated.

Giant Dan.

He can roll!

Our balls. YES, OUR BALLS.

Smelly stinko!

2005-09-14T11:12:00.000+08:00

Holidays in my arms_

The smell of freedom is all over me. It's better than any branded perfume or powder. My long-awaited holidays (no ITP, no projects) are finally here.

I am going to be a party/social/whatever animal, hopping from club to club, planning a getaway away from Singapore, taking myself to the world of craziness and fun and crap and...
These are what I am going to do:

- ~~Dance my ass away tonight at Double-O/ChinaBlack/Gotham Penthouse~~
- Chill out at Esplanade with blasting music
- Bowl/ice-skate to my delight with some fellow MCMers
- Work, work, work and work as a tutor for my last two months
- Spend my birthday in Thailand in October
- Plan another getaway to Batam for massage and spa
- Meet up old and long-lost friends for gossips and catching up
- Visit Fuchun and my old, fogey but darling teachers
- ~~Stay away from school as much as possible~~ ( I failed to do so)
- Sun tan?
- Shop?
- Chalet?
- Cycle?

The list goes on. Danial and I have plan a bowling/ice skating session for the ex T201/6 fellows next Tuesday. Yes, the usual kah kees too. Haha!
So, Joshua, ready to take our challenge? ;)

2005-09-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

Panic-no-more_

Despite the fact that I haven't touched my Media Law notes, I don't feel a least of panic in me. Yeah, I read defamation a bit last night in the book. That's all.

Seriously, how to study when I keep telling myself, "It's a open book exam!"?

Sure dead already.

Anyway, good luck everyone. :)

2005-09-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

Second Chance_

I have been working on a documentary, "A Road Less traveled", for my final project in Documentary Production. Together with Elyn the Editor, Charmain the Director and Renick the Cameraman, we hope to bring across the message, of giving ex-convicts a second chance.

Coincidentally, something happened lately and everyone in school is talking about it. Everyday, everywhere, people talk about this incident and her.

My point of view on this : People have to pay for their wrong deed, and yes they do deserve a second chance. But it applies differently on individual cases.

Some people around me have been mean, and I can't really blame them. Afterall, "she does deserves it". But if whatever she does is wrong and unforgivable, why do we still want to carry on her mistake and be mean to her (or the people around her)?

I mean, yes, she deserves it, yadayadayada...and she's probably not punished enough. But just leave the mean comments in your pockets. Do something constructive if you think she needs to be punished more.

And in my opinion, she hasn't seem to repent. Sigh. It's a sad truth - and probably it will make more people hate her. To some, she hasn't lost enough. To some others, she needs to be pitied. Everyone has different viewpoints on this matter.

Okay, she hasn't been popular all these while - so this matter didn't seem to make the matter worse or whatever. There's one more semester to go, and how is she going to face anybody? For me, I rather not see her because I know I will only smile and be kind. And that is not exactly how I really feel.

I hope this whole matter will blow soon. In my opinion, she should no longer stay in MCM. I mean, if cheating in exams and plagarising means being expelled from school, her deeds will mean how many expulsions?

Again, this is my point of view on my blog.

Just for people out there, do spare a thought for the people around her. After all, they are the innocent ones. Give them some slack alright. :)

It's break time! Media Law exam is on its way, but everyone shouldn't be bogged down by it. It's time to enjoy and have fun - it's now or never!

2005-08-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

Blogstopped

I haven't read blogs for so long.
It feels weird, because I feel detached from people's lives.
I don't seem to know what's really happening.

Not as if they blog daily, but I do feel weird.

I haven't been paying attention to what's going on around me, have I?
People losing their sanity, losing their time spent with family, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends due to overbearing workload.
Seriously. Is doing work all we really care? Of course not!
That's why, I can never find a guy to date. Because GUYS DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Okay, that's a general statement. Girls do feel the same way too. Let's just put it this way - non-masscommers don't empathise with us. Almost.

I haven't had got a proper break for a year now. (ITP, school....) I should be looking forward to this coming one, especially when I'm planning to go Thailand with Ah Ma. But hell no.
Maybe it's the tiredness that overwhelms me. Maybe it's just me.

Maybe, this is the last break in my course of study.

Sounds scary but yeah. Soon, it gonna be time to bid each other farewell at graduation party, and some wish we'll meet sometime in the future, some others wish otherwise.

No matter what, that's one more semester to go, six more months to go.

Hang on people.

2005-08-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

HIV/AIDS Youth Convention 2005

Thank you to everyone who helped in each and every way to make this event possible.

Radio Heatwave's gang.
The 6 hours at the publicity booth was made enjoyable and less torturing because of the whole bunch of you.

Programme/Design Committee.
I think you guys really worked your assess off. If it weren't for you people, we won't have those "suggestive" and "morbid" posters and brochures to show. And of course, thanks for the timely help I needed at times.

Sponsorship and Evaluation Committee.
Well, of course, we won't have enticing gifts and prizes if it weren't for you people as well. Boss Bong is my real motivation man. :D

Publicity and Promotions Team.
I've done my very best to make things easier for you people - and I really thank you guys for your help in every way. Those times we spent publicising and presenting the event were well memorable. I've been a so-so leader - so do forgive. :)

Logistics Team.
This team picks up the rest which the other three teams didn't take on. AND I TELL YOU, they rock. They took care of everything - from food to venue, set up to communication. THEY ARE THE BEST. I felt, if it weren't for them, this Convention won't even make it.

Year 2 Mass Commers.
Yeah, you guys rock too. Some of you are really good! I mean, you motivated me! And of course, many others. :) Thanks for coming, and staying.

YJ.
This photographer really helped me/us to capture the moments we truly missed. I can't wait to see the photographs and reminisce those moments when I was busy stressing out!!!!!

And everyone else.

Now, it proves to show that everyone has a part to play to make this event rock. So thank you so so so much. We had done our best, and let's keep our fingers crossed for what's coming for us next. Maybe it's bad, maybe it's good. There are mistakes we should learn from, there are things which we should give ourselves a pat on our own backs.

Whatever so, it's over. I'm glad, I'm sad, but it no longer matters.

2005-08-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

If there's an alphabet I dislike,
that will be S.

For various reasons.

2005-08-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

A fine line of like and dislike

I believe, the way world works for us is, we meet no one, we hurt no one.

How well am I liked? I don't know. Not that I don't care, but the thing is if I ask the people around me, who will exactly tell me the truth?

Why don't YOU ask yourself this question? Maybe there are some of you who think that you are very well-liked and popular among your friends. Well, think again. Are those friends your backstabbers? Do they really like you for who you are?

Maybe, ask yourself. Ask how a person you have been. A bastard? A bitch? An angel? Or a devil? It's probably not for us to define ourselves.

It's this weird course I'm in, people pretending to like each other. Weicong said he thought I was naive, because I seemed to like my class and course a lot. So much so that I seemed to be showing off.

Oh good god. See what I mean? You never come across as someone you want to be. Never. Well, I won't blame Weicong for saying that too. I was too naive then, thinking everyone's nice nice.
Yeah, there are nice people around. But there are probably 99% of the people I can't get along with. Still, I have to pretend I like them.

Come on, let's admit it. I'm not the first one, neither am I going to be the last. Don't worry about me being another faker in school. If I don't like you, I'll probably don't even care about you - maybe we'll walk in different directions.

I'm just being myself. Something which many find it hard to do. Well, others did it, but ended up making themselves the sinner. Gah. It's a chore living a life where I have to pretend all the time. Don't you think so?

Maybe I'm disliked, maybe I'm not. This is a question I often ask myself. I'm no saint nor god. I do have my flaws, so I understand if I annoy you or whatever.

The thing is, you lead your life. I lead mine.

Just had this feel to put this up, I don't know why. Not targeting at anyone, just a random thought. :)

Take care people. 5 more weeks to go.

2005-07-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Godfather_

This is a good film I've watched today during Script lecture.

And most importantly, my heart was captured by....

He's Al Pacino, who played Michael Corleone in Godfather [1972].

And do you know how he looks like now?

It is so freaking unbelievable right?!!! I thought he was so cool in the film, so macho, although quite cold-blooded. But he was so damn cool okay!
Maybe if you only see from the picture, you wouldn't have thought that I have a thing for someone like that. Oh no, you should watch Godfather. It was quite gruesome. I had my ears covered most of the time (when I sensed killings!).

Whatever so, it is a good film overall. I still prefer the Michael Corleone in the film. Hee.

2005-07-23T16:03:00.000+08:00

Who am I?

Yesterday, I was a scriptwriter.

Today, I am an event planner.

Tomorrow, I will be a film-maker.

Just who am I?

2005-07-18T14:27:00.000+08:00

Check up day

My sad (maternal) Grandmother.

2005-07-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

Racial discrimination_

*Their faces were not captured in shot to protect their identities.

After my DocPro meeting with Elyn, Charmain and Renick at City Hall Starbucks today,
I dragged my feets home - by train. Supposed to meet my secondary school best mate Jing in town but she can't make it in the end.

Anyway, back to racial discrimination. Don't you see a problem with the photo? It's not the sitting position of the Indian man on the left. I took this AFTER the lady on the right, shifted herself after the Indian man sat down.

At this point, I thought, "Racial discrimination?" Tsk.

Everyone seemed okay with everyone on the surface. There is harmony in Singapore, or so it was said. Others thought Singaporeans of different racial groups living together without conflicts and discrimination is an incredible feat. I gather not.

Among us, there are people who do discriminate. Those racist jokes alike, and how people call each other behind each other's backs. Sad.

I never discriminate, I dare to say. Even before I worked with Dhava and Vadi, I had some close Indian friends. Althought I got discriminated by some Indian girls too, I don't blame them. It's all misunderstanding.

After working with Dhava, Vadi and many others, my impression of Indians only became better.
I been through so much with them, and I know them. Indians are also human beings. We are all one kind. Just because our skin colours are different, that don't set us apart!

I got to admit, people around me ( like my grandmother) do discriminate the Indians as dirty people. That's why they don't like to sit near Indians. A very sad case of discrimination.

How can you judge people even before you know them?

2005-07-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

One week down

The purple skies are staring back at me. Maybe I should stop daydreaming.
If I don't do my best now, when do I?

I wish I never gave my best before. Never.

Slow down, time, slow down.

Convex: Crap!
DocPro: Urgh.
Script: Breeze.

I just want more time.

2005-07-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

After this_

Hiatus for like, 2 weeks?
That's so unlike me.

Anyway, I'm just glad it's mid-sem now.
These 2 weeks were hellish, for me.
Broke down a few times - the stress was taking its toll on me.

But it's all over.

Break is here, but after going through 4 semesters,
I know "break" is not a break.

But still! I shall party as much as I can.
Yeps, catch me at somewhere on ladies' night.
It's not everytime I club.

Hah, slumber party!

2005-06-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

A night of wonders.

I truly miss the freedom.
A wonderful night with a wonderful company.
A wonderful band (The Ocean Band) with a wonderful crowd.

I can never forget how the 60-odd-year-old man swayed to the music.

And how I kept turning to look at the cute Caucasian guy in yellow for 101 times.

Of course, I can never forget how I kept grinning from ear to ear.

Because I'm happy.

2005-06-24T03:17:00.000+08:00

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The site is still undergoing some changes.

If you need printing for namecards, posters, brochures or other services stated in the website,
contact Jackson at 65 9069 4947.

Or through me, I'll get you a good price quote. =)

2005-06-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

In my world of confusion.

At this point of my life, I do not want anything to distract me,
or cause my life an upside down.

Busy, as it seems.
My mind is even busier.
Thoughts raced through my mind everyday.
Questions occupied my head.

The ball is no longer in my court.
The whole guessing game is over, I suppose.
I've started the game - but the ball never returned to me.

I, still, am a confused woman.
The answer is definite,
so why do I still bother?

Utmost importance, my studies now.
Utmost importance, my DocPro essay now.

2005-06-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

.....

Goodbye Ms Teo.

2005-06-14T10:26:00.000+08:00

Films watching_

I can never see myself watching films in the library after classes.
But I did.

War Photographer :
An amazing film, which made me felt so much.
Those non-DocPro people, you guys should go watch it too.
Really nice.

Nanook of the North :
I would say, the first bits made me yawn.
The black and white silent film did not seem any appealing to me.
However, as the film progresses, I can't stop myself from laughing.
Nanook and his family, the things they do, how they survive.
Amazing too.

If not for DocPro test today, I probably won't watch these films.
I'm so lazy!!!

Ah, DocPro test.
I haven't touched.

Goodness.

2005-06-13T15:59:00.000+08:00

Thoughts_

Feel like closing this blog down.
So much.

We all know that blogging isn't safe anymore.
Whatever we blabber here can land us in court.
Or better, in FMS office.

What a wonderful world we live in.

Well, I'm against them, and they're against me.
It's a fair world.

2005-06-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

My life?

Now, I feel like a dead fish, just outta the dead sea.
I know I can't compare myself to some others who slog their lives away in Ngee Ann/Mass Comm.
Bah!

Have I changed?
Wils said, I've lost weight.
Dan said, I'm more daring now.

For better or for worse?

Bah!
I'm not gentle as HE thinks -
but who cares?

I'm so "enjoying" my school life now.
GAH!

2005-06-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

*Yawn

School's no longer fun without.....

YOU.

*Yawn

2005-05-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Okay, I've been so busy - at work.
You know, the Kalinga Trilogy play I did with Miror Theatre.

Here are the photos!

The cast and crew of Shanmugam:The Kalinga Trilogy Part 1 @ Substation

Me & Rodney Oliveiro

Me & Yas - the makeup artist's daughter

The crowd after the show

The costumes (Vishnu & Sani Hussin)

The costumes ( Rodney & Prakash)

Me & makeup artist Norehan

Me & Prakash are having fun!

Kavitha, Kathder, Prakash, ME!

Prakash

Caught candid!

Me & Prakash

Kathder carrying Prakash, effortlessly

Kathder thinks he looks like Tom Cruise

Me & Pushpa, one of the Stage Managers

Rasheed, Vadi, Kathder, Sani

Me & Honey, oops, Sani!

Me & Vadi

Me & Kavitha, the Production Manager!

Supporting cast & crew - Kathder & Rasheed!

I conquered my fear of heights!

The secret passage onstage.

I miss peeping through the holes of the curtains on backstage

Sani & Norehan

During rehearsals

Afro me! I used Rodney's prop!

Oh my gawdness.

Happy Family?!

Rodney & Kathder

Kathder & Prakash

Everyone's having fun aight!

Prakash carrying the 4 months pregnant Norehan!

The wonderful people

Me & Vicknesvari

Kathder doing a scene which Vicknesvari did!

Kalinga family?!!

Me & Vishnu

Sani & Prakash

HAHAHAHA!

Saleem, the Stage Manager!

The crap leaders!

So, lotsa photos uh?
We all like to be in the limelight.
Heh, they are ALL fun people.

Let me reminisce their unforgettable lines in the play.......

Prakash....
"I wake up at 3.30am to come to work. So what kind of a dog I am?"

Rodney...
"No budget! I'm killing all the leads and that's it! Better than the Return of the Vadai!"

Sani...
"...Keling?! Who call me keling?! One more time, you call me keling.. I *beep* your father..*beep* your mother!"

Subra...
" Thank god I married an actress!"

Vishnu...
"But I'm supposed to be mute! I can't talk!"

Vicknesvari...
"What? What price? You asking for my price? How dare you!"

These lines were unforgettable.
I really miss them, miss the play, miss everything else.
Ah, I can't wait for part 2 - which will be held at Esplanade??
Hopefully.

I miss you all!

2005-05-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

_First day back to school_

Erm, wait a minute....
I skipped school today!
Hahaha!

My bad, but I was too tired.
After a huge family celebration last night, I'm dead beat now.
Tired and tired.

Was drunk, so I couldn't be bothered to clear the mess on my bed -
those mess left behind by all the make-up blah.
So I just pulled my mattress bed under my bed and plonked on it.
Can't be bothered...

Had an awesome night, so great.
So high till I got drunk.
Haha...

I know it's wrong to skip school... yada yada yada....
But seriously I'm not in the mood for school!

Who will after a night of heavy partying?
Haha!

I'll post some photographs once ready.

Hope school's fun for everyone so far -
sigh, back to housework!

2005-05-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

It's official.

ITP people! One more day for those doing office hours!!!

Well, for me, it's 3 more days.
Oh my gawd.
3 more days to grandma's birthday celebration too.
Great.

Photographer hired - damn expensive.
RM1240
YES, we got a Malaysian to do it.
My cousin's friend, who did her wedding TEN years ago.
Okay, trustable.

We are Year 3s.
MY HELL!
So fast. I'm not even prepared. Shit.

Welcome back WC.
You made us damn jealous with the photographs you've taken.
You better roll back, soon.

Bowling, Dan?
Me & Ayu are ready to take up your challenge.
We shall convert our frustration to energy to vent it on our bowling games.
It shall be the battle of -
Cambodia vs India TODAY! =D

Okay, enough crap.
Tickets for the play are selling like hotpants.
Hah! (Hotpants!)

It should be fun -
and I shall be dead.

BOO!

2005-05-14T08:09:00.000+08:00

The controversy continues.....

It's time to talk about this play.
With just two weeks before the play kicks off at The Substation,
publicity sets in and people are starting to know this play.

But wait, this play is getting a kind of publicity which is not what we expected.
If you have read yesterday's TNP or Tamil Murasu,
you probably have seen the articles about this play.

Or rather, articles about the controversy of the the play.
There's something I don't understand.

We are living in a multi-racial community -
we live together.
"Keling Kia" is just a term to describe the Indians.
And I'm sure there are other terms to describe the Chinese, Malays, or even the Eurasians.

Ah, that one I know.
We call Eurasians "Ang Moh",
though they aren't literally red-haired.

What's more, it's a "Keling Kia" writing this, so-called racist to some, play!
So where's the controversy?
A "Keling Kia" writing a "Keling Kia" play for the "Keling Kias" and ended up being called a racist?

I'm talking about this here not just because I'm part of the play too.
It's because of how disappointed I am with the media.
I've seen enough dark side of the media and I think it's enough.
(Though it's never enough)

Where's the media ethics?
What's all the f*** we've learnt?

Life! today has an article about this too.
Go read it if you can.
Tell me how you feel and blah here.

And, with one more week of ITP,
I sure gonna miss the people there.
I wonder if it's because Manoj's there or time really flies.
Whichever so, I'm having a good time.

Enjoy the nice weekend - for I will too.

2005-05-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

HEAR HEAR!

For the whole morning,
everyone (well, almost) was in a frantic trying to find out what's their new class and who's their new classmates.

Mine: T301 for Media Law.

I know a few people who's my class already.
Which is something to be happy about.
And of course, there are things to be sad about too.

Oh, I can't believe this.
ITP's ending in about 1 and a half weeks' time.
Which means, school shall start soon.

Haha. After all the countdown and shit, are we all really ready for school?
My gawd.

I'm at work now.
Alone in the office, handling the, eh, leaking fountain.
It's wet around the fountain lah.
Nearly slipped and fell. Tsk.

Just had lunch with Manoj.
He brought me to this Nasi Briyani place.
Very sedap, very SPICY.
Haha.

Okay, I'm sad and happy.
You know what I mean.
One can never ask for perfection.

2005-05-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

_Load(s) off my mind_

1) Sent my laptop to Mel Centre.
Just give my laptop a break,
and it will be back to my embrace - soon.
And with my desktop now repaired and working well
(if not, how do you think I type these....),
my laptop is SOLELY mine.
*evilish grin

2) Electives.
i. Conventions and Exhibitions
ii. Documentary Production
iii. Short Film & Scriptwriting

iv. Ad Creatives
v. Advance Public Relations
vi. Print Journalism

And yeps, I got what I want.
I think I've got lucky stars shining...
Same class for some modules with people I know of and get along well with.
That's good enough.
For the rest, I just hope I can make more good friends.

Tag me if you are my module-mate.
I will start loving you.
Haha.

2005-05-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

_DANGER_
Okay, i'm soooo sooo sooo dead now.
My laptop died on me!
Gawd, i can't believe it.
I really can't.
i think it overworked.
it said, "FAN ERROR" and i don't know what the shit is that!
I can't believe this -
I can't live w/o my laptop.
Damn it. And my home PC is down too.
DAMN.
Just as you are wondering why I can type this,
I'm now at my cousin's place -
checking what time Mel will open tmr.
BUT NO! HELL NO!
Mel decided to go ahead with the 5 day work week.
Shit.
And I'm here, finding an outlet for my frustration and exasperation.
At the same time, I'm informing you guys that I'll be MIA for the weekend.
Oh shit.

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Pardon me for spewing the bad words, if you call that that.
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!

Bye.

2005-05-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

It's a whole lot of fun at work today!

YES! Manoj dropped by.
Heh, it was so fun today.
So crowded, and so "noisy".

Kavitah drove me out for a ride -
to MediaCorp when she went to return the props.

And you know what?
I finally understood the sense of work achievement.

I FINALLY GOT A FOOD SPONSOR!
Oh my gawd, that minutes of waiting could really kill me.
And you should have seen Kavitah's expression, anxiousness...
and Vadi's joy.
Oh my.

Time is running out -
and my next task at hand is to sell the tickets.
AS MANY AS POSSIBLE!

Haha, but again, the play is going to be a good one.
So go watch it.
Really!

It's on the 27th, 28th and 29th of May.
Student concession is $15.
So get your friends and your ass down to watch this funny yet meaningful play!

Haha, too much advertising.
Oops.

Anyway, Norehan the make up artiste came by today.
She returned Naresh's frame -
and I "played" with it.....

2005-05-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

Welcome back,
Dan, Dowell and whoever else who came back from Cambodia!
Hope you guys brought back a bag of experience, joy and lessons in life. =)

People, I had sucha good time during the long weekend,
I don't feel like going back to work, really.

Shall I show you my lil' nephew, Xu Kai?

Look at his HAIR! OMG.

Charming.

Lovely.

He's really so pretty, yeah.
My brother-in-law's so anxious over him.
Gawd, he's the new darling of everyone now.

I had my fair share of family fun, friends outing, chill-out, and tan.
YES!!! I WENT TANNING!
You can't believe HOW TANNED I am now.
I hope it can last till school starts.
My back is so hot and red now.
So burnt.

Work today was quite fun.
I dropped by Fuchun to look for Mr B.
He knows Mr Vadi!
Hahaha, and he intends to watch the play.
Isn't that great?
Oh, lovely.

I got my pay today.
Cool, I'm finally not broke.
Heh, and I got a good boss.
Really. He gave me more than what quoted.
So nice right? =)

I chose my IS modules already.

Effective Negotiation from 10 to 12.
Same as mine?
Hee, thanks Boss.
The internet at work was quite screwed up this morning.
Adding to it, I had to go out to do publicity.
Thus, Boss helped me out.
Thanks Boss.
I shall marry myself to you. =)

2005-04-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

The weekend all working people are yearning for.
WHAT A LONG WEEKEND!

And I wanna celebrate the fact that it's the last day of April today -
because May is a cause for celebration!!!!

1st May is my lil nephew's 1 month old party.
I simply love my huney boy.
He's so lucky, 'cause I'm definitely NOT his ONLY aunt.
gawd, he got tons.
HAHA.

Coming end of May is my grandma's birthday dinner.
It gonna be the event of a lifetime.

And.... School's reopening!
Hooray!
... Uh, crazy am I?

Haha, I miss da fellas mass commers.
Can't wait for Dan to return and go bowling together.
Ayu and me shall "bowl" him & Josh over!

How's work for everyone?
I saw some fella mass commers at Esply last night.
Gawd, it was like a Masscommer night or something.
But I'm certainly pleased to see familiar faces.

And of course, I had a hell of a good time @ Esply.
Gawd, why have I found sucha wonderful place to chill?
Though a pub will be cool as well, I just love my Esply.

So sad that they gonna build an IR there soon.
And with a casino.
Sigh, it's no longer the same old place I know years ago.

Let's talk about MY work.
Sigh, sometimes I wonder, is it 'cause I'm too incompetent,
or they don't wanna me to work too hard?

They are publishing a magazine for the play.
And I really wanna be part of it!
I wanna help to write, do interviews, give ideas.
I really want!

And I offered to help, but to no avail.
The director (my boss!) got someone else to help my Production Manager 'stead.
Urgh, I feel so sad-ed.

I mean, I'm also given work to do,
like finding food sponsors and blah.
But I wanna do MORE!
Can I?

Oh well, just 3 more weeks to go.
Can't believe it,
4 weeks into ITP and I'm still ALIVE.
Gawd.

Oh, I wanna thank my MSN kahkees.
Like Siti, Trina & Ayu.
If not for them, I'll prolly die from boredom.
Thank you darlings. =)

I simply miss ya people.

And guess who I saw??
The Kelly from the other cohort!
What's the surprise, you must be thinking right?
I went to visit my ex-neighbour today.
Damn ex 'cause we used to live in Jurong.
In fact, I was born and grew up in Jurong!
Anyway, we were in the lift....
I came out from the lift, and saw her.
I was staring at her.
And she was staring at me too.
It was SO FUNNY.
The world's so small.
Everyone's everywhere.

It was great, to reminsce the past, sometimes.
It feels great to know that I'm growing up.
Ha, growing up.

2005-04-28T13:34:00.000+08:00

When people learn that I'm working in a production company,

"dabbling" with tv dramas and theatre work,

they ASSUMED ,

"Eh, so you work in MediaCorp lah?"

When I politely said, "No, I work at Farrer Park...",

they ASSUMED again,

"Oh, near MediaCorp right?"

Tell me about it.

And when my grandmas asked me what will I do when I graduate,

I struggled with my Hokkein and told them, (loosely translated)

"I make television."

My paternal side grandma understood it by saying,

"Oh, the report news one eh? So you are going to report news in the future lah? Very well paid eh... More news, more pay."

My materal side grandma understood it by saying,

"Television? So you will report news? Why want to work as this? Very tedious. Should be a teacher. Easier. "

Ah, I wondered, I've come so far, and still there are people who opposed to it.

And with 3 more weeks of ITP, it means I have 3 more weeks before I officially turn Year 3.

That is freakin' fast.

How I wish I can just work from here, start to take on freelance jobs, build contacts, and work with people who wants to work with me now....

Why must I return to school to complete my course in order to get a Diploma?

Why must I learn Media Law and MASINA?

Tsk. I'm at work now, blogging.

This says it all, no?

My "much-envied" work life.

Probably not, afterall.

2005-04-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

Some photos taken when we went to do some publicity last week..
... and boss wasn't around!

Me & Kavitha, the Production Manager

We were crappy, aren't we? And she was driving then!

It's dangerous to drive and play!

Us and Kumar, the "intern" who gonna take over me once I leave.

Kumar freaked me out.

They are really fun people.
I shall remember, remember, remember, and remember to bring cam to snap the artistes in action soon.
SOON!

2005-04-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

I HATE MONDAYS!
Because they are ALWAYS blue!
(It has nothing to do with myself being a bluebird, Weicong.)

When many people think that my job is glam (but no glam-er than some others),
they fail to see the dark side of it.
Now that boo and I are on it,
let me bring on the dark side of MY job.

Dark side:
Not the long working hours.
I don't mind tough job, really.
But the dark side is,
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO!

Just like today.
I practically sit in the office,
let the air-con gets into my head ( and make me air-brained),
chat with Bong on MSN (or rather, crapped),
and just slacked my day away.

I have really nice colleagues, I shall say.
Because they don't really treat me like kids.
And the artistes I've met are really nice & friendly - and weird too.
But our bad points - we love to eat.
That's bad, no?
Haha!

So there are BOOBOOS for every job.
I probably would think this is the best job if I really stayed in NP CorpComm.
But right now, I believe that every job has its pros and cons.
You can never find a perfect job,
like you never find a perfect one. =)

And thanks Bong, for your nice MSN company today.
All of a sudden, my MSN chats were overwhelming after I came back from buying my lunch.
So busy "chatting" I had my lunch an hour after I bought my lunch.

Hee.
All about "busi-ness".

Take care people!

2005-04-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

i'm used to a 12-hour work day.
filming in the house seems more tiresome.

but we had nice "breaks".
11 am - we had thosai & prata feast.
3pm - we had a good "spicy" lunch.

and i always have lotsa fun with the crew.
they always bring me laughter.

yesterday, they tried to include a fish in shot.
so it meant that the fish had to "act".
it was so funny to wait for the fish to come out!
=D

they are the people who mix work & play together,
and still produce good results.
they are really a bunch of... uh, playful & crazy monkeys!
hee.
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somehow, i wish i am somewhere far away.
like weicong, dan, dowell....

and i wish to meet some people up.
right, trina?

and.... i wish... i never exist.

???

2005-04-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

my little nephew, Xu Kai.

his long fingers - my jerene sis wants him to learn to play piano!

my sis feeding him.

he's enjoying his food.

i'm an Aunt - again!!!

i've been looking forward to "meet" my little nephew.
jerene sis showed me some video clips in her labour ward.
the amazing thing about new life.
haha!

but what pained me was the sight of the nurses being rough to the baby.
they were not gentle at all!
my heart wrenched at every touch.
ouch.

anyway, it was fun-
hearing labour story.
i wonder how would it be like for mine....

met a very pretty girl today -
and i snapped her photo (secretly).
she's really cute, & pretty.
my grandma scared her by saying,
"xiao mei mei, ni hen mei leh."
(loosely translated as "little girl, you are very pretty leh.")

it's as though the girl was posing for me.

i can't wait to see my nephew again.
he's so pretty handsome.
his features are so defined.
he's really handsome.
and, he looks like his father!
haha, almost like a photocopy machine!

2005-04-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

ITP week 3

-Monday-
it was a hell long day,
cos' i got nothing to do and i spent 3/4 of the day ALONE in the office.
that was how bad it was.
it was HELL for me.

-Tuesday-
they had rehearsals for the play,
so the fellas came.
whenever they are here, there's always crap.
haha!
and the production manager kavitha came as well.

i joined vadi, kavitha and prakash on a island-wide run to publicise the play in schools.
so we went to the west side, after lunch @ harbourfront.
but we did not manage to cover all the schools.
but i went to ngee ann poly.
haha.
sure miss school.

it was a hard ride,
cos' vadi drove hard!!!!
haha, but it was fun during the journey cos' we really crapped a lot.

anyway, it was a fun experience.
and walking with vadi was stressful.
cos' he's so well-known -
that tamils would smile at him & walk up to him to shake hands.

and pasting posters all over serangoon road.
haha!
that was fun too, though tiring.

okay, tmr's my off day.
and i'll be visiting my new born nephew tmr.
YAY!
finally i'm seeing him.

oh, and i think for the next few working days,
i will be running around often.
it doesn't matter cos' there's a car!
at least i'm not cooped in the office.
hee.

okay, 4 more weeks of ITP,
unbelievable.
i sure miss my ITP -
the non-office moments.
HAHA.

2005-04-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

- Tomb Sweeping Festival -

Literally we "spring-clean" the tombstones of our ancestors.
Well, we used to set off in a big group and early in the wee hours.
It was a lot of fun, because we were doing things together as a big family.

Now, it's quite different.
We tried to go separate ways,
but we always ended up unable to find the tombstones.
Call it superstition, but there are some things which cannot be explained.

So we decided to go together,
but in a smaller group now - together with my uncles & cousins.

on our way.

me & surene sis, using her new Canon digicam

grandpa's homeground.

my grandpa's tombstone.

my grandpa.

our religion, our practice.

we gather to pray.

burning the joss paper.

I call it challenge,
cos' we always have to climb up & down the tombstones to get to my great-grandma's tombstone.
The tombstones are too close to each other, that there is no moving space.

great-grandma's homeground.

my great-grandma's tombstone.

my great-grandma.

My cousin, Yaozong, is one traditional man.
So traditional he gets to my nerves!

Yaozong: You want uh?? Cannot lah, you are a girl!!! Only males can!

I was like, "WHAT THE HELL?!"
When my uncle (his father) said I can as long as i am not married......

Yaozong: Nah! Give you lah!!!

BUT i refused to take it. Too late bro!

the joss papers flew.....

and while the cleaner was sweeping... this was what we did!

See what all the walking did to me.

When i was still young, my cousin Yi Li would piggy-back me cos' it was hard to walk.
We reminsced the past.....

Yi Li: Come, come....
Me: Uh, i very scared leh.....

Me: YAY!
Yi Li: Wah, so heavy!!

My Dad, and his two brothers. Alike, don't they?

On the way home, we snapped photographs.
My youngest sister and Yi Li look very alike......

...and they are not real sisters.

So i joked about their parentage when my mummy was just beside me.
Guess what i got?

Thanks MUMMY!

My eldest aunt-in-law & my grandma!

Dad & Mum.

So, you can see that the bus was really shaky!!!

Me & my brother Yaozong! The bus was REALLY bumpy, lah.

We were boasting who will be famous first...

The true, display of a hungry "ghost".

It's the time when the cemetery got really crowded.
And i still remember the time,
when me, Manoj, Darryl, Kelly & Ailing went to my grandpa's tombstone for Locvid.
My Dad was with us...
I can never forget, that we could not find the tombstone until my uncle arrived -
and we realised our cab just stopped right in front of the tombstone!
And of course, Ailing's screeching scream when a dog tried to flirt with her....

Ah, those memories.
Time spent with my family is always so short, it seems.
But with 1 month to my grandma's birthday,
family meetings can only increase.
Heh.

2005-04-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

-Last day filming@ Greenwood Primary-

the kids doing warm up before shoot.

Nishok & Subra rehearsing their lines.

Nishok - the joker

Nishok & Subra - the two "Littles"

Subra - the main lead in the show.

Aziz & me

Subra, me, Shalinidevi

Aziz & Subra - the Big & Small

Aziz - he's BIG, i mean, he's a BIG star!

Kaveena, Vivecka, me, Shalinidevi

Aziz, me, Subra - yeah, my FATS.

During shoot.

Malti & me - the Achar! lady.

ITP has been a challenge to me!

me & Prakash

Normad the cameraman & Zaki the soundman

Normad?!

Oops, caught the director (in blue) in act!

Director Dhava & Director of Photography Vinc.

During shoot (2)

The dolly-man, "Wa" - he catwalks.

@work

A scene which has MANY NGs cos' we kept laughing. Haha!

it was a hilarious day.
haven't laughed till i cried for ages.
okay, i just miss my classmates so much.

but anyhow, today is the last day of everyone being together.
last day shoot in Greenwood Primary.
so everyone was quite sad.

the funny thing was, the kids wanted my signature!
i was like, "fine, you guys want Malti's signature... but why MINE?!"
i told em' i am not a star or whatever,
but they said they want anyone's email address and signature.
they drove me to exasperation.

haha, but i love em' ever the same.
i gonna meet em' afterall, at the launch of the show.
hee.

ah, so ITP isn't so bad, afterall.
5 more weeks to go, people!

2005-04-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

"We are delighted that you have visited our website and hope that you will enjoy
and be stimulated by what you find."

extracted from here while i was (i still am!!!) researching during work.. i wonder if they have porn, if not, why would i be stimulated?

2005-04-13T16:37:00.000+08:00

the past.

some of the birthday photographs of my grandma's.
usually, the past makes me over-think.

definitely nothing to do with PMS.

as i tear when i saw photographs of my grandpa,
i wish i could see him in real life.
i wish i could know him better.

my grandpa was a suave man, i believe.
i'm sure he'll love me to bits,
if he was still alive.

2005-04-11T11:03:00.000+08:00

my work.

my work desk

the only sound-able thing in the office, besides my radio on com.

my company - Green Jub Jub

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i did not bring along my cam to filming though,
but i'll do so next week.

filming was cool.
especially when the crew were so hilarious.
most of the time,
they made me laugh till i almost cried.

oh, and sometimes i felt stupid.
wonder if it's PMS.
i just felt i wasn't of any use there and in fact,
i created trouble for em'.
i feel this way, lah.
tsk.

today's Monday -
and i'm at home!
YAY!
finally got my off-day.
hee.
tmr's my off day too,
but trying to swop with Wednesday.
things are getting hot for my ah ma's birthday,
cos' cards are printed, already!
it's nice, lah. haha.
the cover page is something like that.....

the card.

the chinese word is "shou", which means prosperity and long-live.
hee.

oh, and we are hiring a photographer to take photos.
i managed to convince my bro, aunt, and mum -
"it is important to take good photos! i gurantee that ten years down the road,
you guys won't regret it!!!!"

see!
need a salesman?
haha.

okay, thanks to those who accompany me on MSN while at work.
thanks to those who encouraged me while i was down at work.
thanks to my family- so tolerant to my weird irregular working hours.
thanks, so far.

it's all about adaptability, no?
and i'm sorry i blogged so much these days.
after-effects of cooping in the office.

serious. =)

2005-04-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

it has been a long day of filming @ Greenwood Primary School.
it started out quite badly, cos' i felt so lost and extra there.
i didn't feel i was of any use!

anyway, things got better, lah.
i was more like a nanny to the kids -
a coffeegirl to the crew.

but this is expected.
and guess what?
this is what i've been thinking of doing.
hee, weird uh.

i chatted with the Achar! lady today.
you know, the indian lady.
yah, she's nice, lah.
we talked a lot today.
from countries to working experience,
to food!
haha, that's our favourites!
especially when we were munching chips while chatting.
heh.

the kids were really funny lah.
very cheeky too.
i feel like a teacher again, somehow. =)

director dhava asked how i was feeling,
and if i would join this industry after i leave poly.

i thought for awhile,
and gave him a shocking answer.
"NO!"

he was like,
"what?! it's only 3 days!!!"

haha, yah.
but the reason is because,
i don't think i'm capable of handing it.
i'm just not there, lah.

but anyway, experience is so precious.
i can't believe i told kelly i hoped this ITP was in year 1 -
cos' i would've quit masscomm!

*horror*
why would i say that?
gosh, it's weird.
but you can never guess what someone who's PMSing will say at the most distressing moments.
haha.

tmr's there's filming too.
director dhava said i'll help him pass messages to the artistes,
like move to accomodate the camera angle,
or stuff like that.
quite fun, i guess.

especially the crew -
they are funny lot, lah.
and really DOM!
dirty old men.
hahaha.

okay, this post sounds more positive uh.
and JUSTIN!!!
i know i should feel more grateful i'm not in CorpComm.

i was thinking, if i really got into CorpComm,
i would have always thought this could've been the best, ever.
HAHA, irony.

okay, what the hell am i talking?
fine.
i hope i get my monday and tuesday off.
so i can sleep my day away -
while some fellas fly to Cambodia.
HAHA.

okay, bon voyage people.
miss yahhhhhh. =)

2005-04-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

just when everyone is yay-ing about their much anticipated weekend,
i don't know how to say i look forward to mine.

i'll be working on both days of the weekend-
8 to 6.30pm.
they have got filming.

i'm so tired.
finally, i got some stuff to do today.
source for advertising spaces on the different medias,
source for performance venues,
source for stage set makers, sound & lighting.

but i spent most of the time alone in the office.
i feel so lonely.
thank gawd i've got Green Jub Jub today,
a Neopet softtoy which my mum had bought recently.
NO!!! i'm not a Neopet fan.
though Dan suggested i play Neopet when i'm bored.
sigh.
now i know what's your favourite past-time young boy.

and you won't believe i had to take the train to travel to another place to buy my lunch.
quite pathetic right?
sigh, what to do?

i've since developed a phobia for indians.
i'm not a racist...
but they stare.
i stand out.

i'm so scared stepping out of office.
so scared.

i should be having fun, no?
but i feel it's so stupid to embark on a long journey to work when you can do your work at home. the time spent on travelling is so wasteful!!!!

urgh, work.
i'm not suited for 9 to 6 job, definitely.

i'm trying to keep up a positive attitude.
i take everyday as a new learning day -
everyday as a challenge.

but it's not easy.
i miss school, i miss you people.
i miss my family too.

it seems as though i haven't seen em' for a long time.
as though.

tsk, ITP.

2005-04-06T19:47:00.000+08:00

it's my third day into ITP -
and i have to say i'm totally drained.

it's not as though i've got lotsa stuff to do there, lah.

these few days i was engaged with family stuff -
so i spent a lot of time outside.
plus i think SGH has lotsa germs,
and i probably caught a flu bug.

first day of ITP -
3 to 5pm.

second day of ITP -
10 to 2pm.

third day of ITP -
11 to 4pm.

seems cool uh?
from tmr onwards,
it's 9 to 6pm.
but again, i don't really have lotsa things to do there.
and i do things really fast.
i ended up bummin' around doing NOTHING.

so i'll probably be released early?
there weren't many people around -
in fact, i'm the only offical employee!!
people coming in and out are artistes, directors.
like, wow.
they seemed big shots - but i really don't know em.
oh, only one i know.
rodney oliverio.

wonder if ya'll guys know him.

but anyway.
all i did was to call up artistes to inform em' of rehearsals,
fill in their CVs,
filing stuff,
fill in ROS forms,
.....
basically admin work, lah.

oh, i'm actually working for TWO companies.
one is Blueriver Pictures - on TV shows.
the other is Miror Theatre - on theatre works and plays.

so, these days i'm more focused on theatre stuff.
shooting for TV kids programme is on weekends.
so.....

yah, laugh.
i'm working on weekends.
haha.

i'm tired.
but quite fun, i got to admit.

by the end of my ITP,
talk to me in Tamil.
i'll probably understand. :)

no racism involved, ah.

hope the rest are having fun with ITP.

2005-04-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

let's welcome ...........................

my little nephew!
born on 5th of April 2005,
6.10pm,
3.41kg,
51cm.

as my aunt was unexpectedly admitted to SGHl for an op,
i had to be there for her and could not visit my little nephew and dearest cousin in Mount E.

it's a cause to rejoice - a new life has began.
it may be hard ahead, with struggles and pain -
but the wonders of a new life are amazing.

i've learnt MORE life lessons today.
my family, has become even more important to me.
sometimes, i think they are worth much more than my life.

congrats jerene sis and teck lee bro.
may your baby boy grow up to be a capable suave man.

2005-04-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

let me fly away....

.... to zimbawe.

those having holidays,
have great fun and rest much.

those having ITP,
have great fun and work much.

watch out for this space if you wanna know how i "suffer" at work!

2005-04-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

i'm a free-man now.
YAY!

for those who gonna laugh at my ITP,
(namely Josh, Kelly, Trina, Dan!)
i will enjoy my ITP,
so don't worry for me okay!

heh.
after a hell commiss today,
some of us went to town for lunch -
then to marina square for bowling.

oh, thanks to Dan.
we walked AROUND the mall.
wah, why don't you try being the tour guide?
*winks*

our bowling session was really fun.
all the stances we did - whoa.
all the curses of "one pin" - whoa.
haha!

went to esplanade -
then to pacific cafe for chill out.
oh, and i stumped em' with those brainless questions.
uhh, i'm not so brainless afterall right?
at least i know i asked brainless questions.
diaoz.

but i really don't know!!!
okay. i will know.
heh.

pretty sad some classmates of us weren't with us.
we shall go out again, again?
we will!
cos' i miss ya'll guys so much.

haven't had so much fun for so long.
ever tried laughing so hard for a day?
heh.

on the bus.
off the bus.
BK.
bowling.
chill out.

hahah.
thanks people.
you guys rock my world!

2005-03-31T00:02:00.000+08:00

when i was young, people call me Hamburger.
it's an irony now i'm called Pork Bun.
and donkey years ago, i was actually a BOY.

seen a BOY wearing a dress?

when i was ONE year-old.....

my cousins.

my grandmas.

with so many food when i celebrate my birthday,
no wonder....*looks at myself*.
so this is how i get my size!

i had a thing for guitar okay!

my cousins okay! can you spot me?

there you go!

one more time! the one carrying the white heart is my DAD!

that's me there!

the cheeky me & my cousins!

my life was so free & fun.
it's weird, lah.
supposed to scan my grandma's old photos and send to my big brother.
for my grandma's birthday.
heh.
see, all the preparations!
oh well,
just anticipate to see MORE old photos to come.

it's interesting -
cos' every photo has a story behind it.

2005-03-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

i'm not a glutton.

but there is something i love after slogging for projects.
that is,

my grandma's bird nest.
*slurps*
as i'm drinking the bird nest she made for me,
i thought of those horrible days i spent in school.

that was when she told me she would make me something great after all the busy-ness.
and i knew what that is.

and as i scooped the bird nest for my mouth's pleasure,
i realised she meant it when she said she put in extra birdnest.
where can you find such lovely grandma?

and yes, i'm showing off my grandma here.

since i'm at it, let me do a brief intro on my grandmas okay.

i got 3 grandmas (officially)-
my paternal grandpa married two (officially).
my grandma is the first wife.

my stepgrandma passed away about 2years ago.
left with two grandmas.
being the eldest over my maternal side,
you can tell that i'm much doted by my maternal grandma -
who never fails to make my favourite chicken wings whenever i drop by.

that explains my size, duh.

and yes, i got two lovely grandmas.
and one lovely grandpa (whom i always thought hated me since young).

why the special mention of the oldies in my family?
cos' i'm the PLANNER for my paternal grandma's 80th birthday dinner!
hee.

so yes, i'm distracted from PR cos' i've been thinking of that at least 101 times a day.
aweeeesome uh.

okay. what a LONG entry professing my love to my oldies.
love you grandmas.

*slurps*

p.s// i'm looking for a photographer/videographer to help me @ my grandma's birthday dinner. PAY: a seat on the nice table and a nice treat (abalone....shark's fin....). just tell me you aren't after the food. thanks.

2005-03-26T14:42:00.000+08:00

i know it is hard to believe my fish has no eyes.
but i'm perfectly serious!
everytime i see my fish, i feel so sad.
i feel my eyes are in pain.

here are the pictures to prove.

mummy asked the uncle who sells fishes.
he said too many fishes in one tank can lead them to fight and knock against each other.
and that's probably why the eyes dropped.
and if you are wondering where are the eyes....

it was only after my daddy changed the fish tank water my sister realised the eyes were gone.
sad right?

and this only happened after my dad brought a few "foreign" fishes back.
sigh. i thought the more the merrier.

i'm going to head down to IKEA -
and buy a nice bowl/container.
so i can separate the fishes -
and keep the poor blind fish in my room.

sigh.

2005-03-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

here's up!

aiyah, you people ah.
cannot decide on something -
then give Dan The Horse a chance to laugh at me,
saying whatever i organise will never work!

i don't mind bowling...
cos' i MISS bowling!
but Kelly The Monkey wants ice-skating.
i don't know how to ice-skate...
and i'm not prepared to give ya'll guys a reason to laugh at me again!!

hmmmm.
why not like this.
let's poll okay.

i don't know what other ideas you guys have -
but me & that monkey came up with some today.

1) ice-skating (she likes)
2) bowling (i like)
3) cycling @ ECP (we don't mind)
4) KTV (she loves)

if ya'll guys have other ideas, tag it.
OR if ya'll too lazy to come up with ideas,
tell me which one you like.
heehee.
or we can go somewhere we can multi-task.

OHAY.
i shouldn't be organising this -
but, tsk.
i miss my classmates too much i can't help but start planning.
LOL.

and if i fail my PR exam or Commiss,
i'll come after you all.

------------------
me, edna & monkey returned the skateboarding stuff (finally!) after PR.
phew, a burden off our shoulders.
had a nice chicken rice lunch together.
plus ice kachang dessert.

and we talked about some funny dreams we had of our classmates.
heehee.
i'll miss em', really.

2005-03-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

attention T206!
let's have a fun time out after commiss exam on 1st April, Friday?
no April Fool's joke.

be it movie, lunch, dinner, picnic, chalet, chill-out, BBQ,shopping, whatever!
someone just take over from here, organise & make it a big bash!

simply miss ya'll people.

2005-03-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

::T206::

communication issues - lins, kelly, dan, josh.
the memories i hold,
are those when we gossip & laugh.
the laughter and tears.
(tears when we laughed till kelly cried!)
the stupid games we brainstormed.
the passport-size photo machine shit.
the 7pm-still-at-sim meeting.
what fond memories.

public relations - frank, cherlyn.
the memories i hold,
are those when we giggle & crap.
the lovely towel-wrapped ass.
(frank's mistress!).
the biased.
the "myself" presentation.
what fond memories.

tv production - kelly, lins, siti fairuz, samantha lim, paris, stephh.
the memories i hold,
are those when we pull & "grab".
the horrendous late nights.
the scary heavy lights.
all the directors, producers & visual mixer.
what fond memories.

web design - frank, lins, kelly.
those memories i hold,
are those when we slack & rack.
the last minute struggle.
the dreamweaver & flash fucker.
the last project lins came over.
what fond memories.

feature writing - wilson, dan, idayu, sarah, siti fairuz, lins, jiewei, dayah.
those memories i hold,
are those when we shoot & eat.
the photoshoot shopping.
ikea & jurong point.
the swimming pool fun.
the torn bermudas.
the late nights spent at atrium.
the night over at jw's.
the horrendous sleep i had.
the poking & snapping.
the chocolate cheesecake.
the last article.
the rush for the deadline.
the hell of a lifetime.
what fond memories.

special mentions:
trina the boss.
i recalled the last time when i wrote about my classmates,
i haven't known her very well.
she's a very "caring" boss.
give kinda bueno as bonus.
thanks ah.

ayu the sub.
we always go supermarkets.
from liberty to ntuc.
oh, and also cold storage.
and we freaked out over this red man at jp.
watch out ye.

frank the bas.
he's never whom i thought he was.
i miss "bullying" him -
just like how he always does.
just a special note to him: don't worry about my weight.
i can handle it myself.
haha.

jenn the quiet.
this lady here is really really, different.
we seldom talk - but when we do,
crap comes from her.
no, i won't take online journ.
but who says we may not be classmates again?
heehee.

halawah the great.
she's so harmless and tiny!
okay, and she's really devilish.
it's OK with no tudung for a day!
i couldn't recognise her!
she was like, " you find me familiar, right?"
freakish!
but still, i miss ya'll "do-ing" you know.*winks

sim the yaya.
the macdonald's dinner,
our last meal together.
those chats of horror,
the crap of laughter!
hahah.

clarice the loud.
she laughs.
she's evil!
she laughs till we laugh.
her laughter is contagious.
beware!!!

josh the hell.
he bullies.
he gave me the name pork bun.
wah lau eh.
but never mind, i like it
haha.
don't be so selfish!
don't be so mean!
haha.

dan the ~~girl~~ horse.
the cheesecake threat.
i'll never carry out.
haha.
we are still on the same side.
always the same, okay?
promise!
and, the 7s you gave me.
remember? 7 injections?
ouch. *LOL*

siti the producer.
i simply love you.
the cheerful you.
the crappy you.
and also,
the HORNY you.
haha.
i know you love big dicks.
period. *winks*

sarah the fast.
she speaks fast.
cos' she thinks fast.
and she can be very very hyperish.
hahah.
she's very enthu.
and also, very emo.
dear girl, things will pass,
wounds will heal, feelings will fade.
but i'll always be here -
whenever you need me. =)

lins the perfectionist, my love.
she goes for perfection.
but i love it.
she passes me her genes.
but i love it.
she's my darling.
and i love her.
i'll miss ya'll at my place.
miss my mum's mee tak bak okay?

kelly the noisy, my love.
she makes my day gay.
she makes everyone cheery.
people say she's cute.
i say she's my darling.
people thought me, her, lins are sisters.
we click not cos' we belong to 1985 batch.
it's because, i'm the bee and they are honey.
*yuuccck
gross. hahaha.
miss my dad okay?

wils the ed.
poor thang.
be more assertive boy.
be more open!
uh, i mean, open as in talk!
haha.
you are a great one -
but don't always do things yourself okay?
i'll remind you again,
if there's a chance. =)

lisa the HAHA.
i got a few people in my class who laughs loud.
she's one of em'.
it's no wonder people think we are a bunch of hilarious people.
we laugh at each other.
haha~

dayah the funny.
she thinks i'll abandon her.
no way, my fair lady.
haha.
especially not when your saini is waiting.
haha.

jiewei the evil.
she snaps!
she pokes!
she's evil!
but at least we get to stay over her place.
haha.

paris the myself.
he's funny.
he never meant to be.
he slangs.
he never meant to be.
haha.
but he certainly makes us look forward to pr presentations.
thanks ah. haha.

-----------------
i think it's obvious how much i adore my classmates.
those memories we share.
haha.
i can't believe it's over.

thank you for all the fun ye.
it's not the end yet!!!!!

thanks for everything. =)

2005-03-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

a real relief.

first and foremost, i thank everyone in my magazine group.
from editor to designers,
sub-eds to reporters.
wilson, danial, idayu, lins, jiewei, sarah, sitifairuz, hidayah.

whatever had happened, it has been a great journey for the past 15 weeks.
those times we spent shopping for photoshoot,
having the photoshoot,
editing, writing, subbing, whatever.

i shall never forget.

i realy miss ya'll guys as classmates.
i've been thinking a lot these days.
i realised, i've learnt more - a lot more.

i see the true colours of people.
i know who's really nice.

thanks a lot.
for being there when the going gets tough.
when everything seems so wrong,
there's always someone right there to keep me sane.
and i appreciate that.

thanks siti - for being such a great tv producer!
thanks sarah - for being so hyperish at times of lowness.
thanks dan - for being there just at all the times, especially when we were cutting the stuff today. i'll probably cut myself a million times if you weren't there!
thanks lins - for being such a perfectionist. you really infected me.
thanks kelly - for being so cheery around me. i certainly miss you these few days.
thanks ayu - for being sucha meticulous subber (like dan).
thanks wils - for being an over-responsible ed who tries to keep things right.

thanks ALL.
really.

and i certainly miss.
of course, the crappy times we had.
and i haven't missed a class so much - for so long.
have a good rest people.
i'll be back.

2005-03-16T17:21:00.000+08:00

last week of school -

i'm bogged down with many stuff.

family stuff.

work stuff.

itp stuff.

school stuff.

lotsa stuff.

i was posted to NGEE ANN POLY CORP COMM.

good gracious.

before you gasp, i've OPTED OUT OF IT.

don't worry, i shan't be company-less.

everyone's really busy with everything.

it seems as though even if we don't sleep at night, we still can't finish what we have at hand!

but still, this is the kinda life we lead.

and shan't have any complaints.

moreover, it's a bliss to be busy with something.

compared to the less fortunate,

we are so so so soooo much fortunate.

please, let things go well for me.

2005-03-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

in just ten days, i'll end my journey in year two.

and prepare to start my itp adventure -
which josh thinks i'll suffer but i'm sure i'll enjoy!

and get back on track in pursuit of my diploma as a final year student.

and of course, my electives.
i thought of it the past few weeks.
almost as though i've made my choices.

but now when i can put em' in,
i realise i can't choose at all.

let's say my mind is playing games with me.
let's say i'm just too lazy.
let's say i'm just too tired.

whatever so, i just can't think now.
probably.

but it's gonna be tough.
the choice between the "Ps".

passion, or practical?

it's stupid to think this way -
but hello people, wake up & think realistically.
it's a $$ world afterall.

but of course, passion overrides everything else.
but $$ does matter to me too.

but still, i wish i can be classmates with ya'll guys again.
you guys rock like horses.
great like bosses.
delicious like pork buns.

hahahahaha.

and, for someone who may not be reading this, but still.
you may have left us -
but i still wish you all the best.
hope ya'll find the goal in your life & strive for it.
despite all had happened,
i'll still miss you.
take care.

2005-03-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

it doesn't matter tv rehearsal was late into the night.

it doesn't matter i had a long friday in school.

it doesn't matter i got embarrassed in pr class - thanks to frank.

it doesn't matter i was dead shag.

because at the end of the day,
i went to esply -
with the right person, ..no, people.

another drive-around with him -
and my friend - his ex.
so funny combi right.

it was so nice.
though it was painful.

never mind.
still, i took care of him -awhile
when he felt unwell.
poor thing.

it's enough already.
my heart is falling.

2005-02-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

pulse's photoshoot.

ikea shopping with ed & subs.
wilson, danial, ayu.
fun trip ya know.
all those sneaking tricks dan's up to.
the HORSE thing.
i'll never forget it, danial hakim.

jurong point.
shopped to and fro million times.
i can walk around with my eyes closed.
no sweat.

jiewei's place.
siti fairuz, sarah, jiewei.
model chris.
work work work.

dan the (gay) photographer.
me the photographer assistant, mah-lee-yah.
sarah the image consultant.
ayu the production assistant, aka nanny.

hahaha!
by the way, gay means happy.
what else do you think it is?
tsk tsk.

to sum it up, i cannot take the horse thing off my mind.
thanks to dan.
THANKS ah.

2005-02-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

i've been in such a bad mood.
i hate "myself".
i flared up at anyone i can see.
i was so gloomy my face was so blac.

everyone almost detests me.
i hate "myself".

the "myself" when i'm stressed over work.
the "myself" when i don't have enough sleep.
the "myself" when i get very pissed.

the very "myself".

guilt-ridden.

just who on earth can stand me?

life sucks at this point of time.

--------------
oh by the way, i've got a 2 new names.

pork bun
maria
(pronounced as "mah-lee-yahhh")

thanks to josh & kel -
and boss bong respectively.

thanks AH.

2005-02-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

we've been friends for the past 10 years.
very good friends, i will say.

will i regret?
no, i won't.

will i feel i wasted my time?
no , i won't.

i'm contented with the memory you've gave me.
and thanks.
i know there's more to come.

and i also know, we will be friends forever.

whatever will be, will be.
we are meant to be friends - who stand by each other all the time.

still, you will always be my Chicken McDonalds.
you may not be the only one - but surely a special one deep in my heart.

------------thanks fer everything.

2005-02-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

The Corrs : What Can I Do

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we have talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong



What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there



There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope



[Chorus]



No more waiting, no more aching

No more fighting, no more trying...



Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just going to let it fly...



[Chorus]



Love me...

2005-02-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

it has been a wonderful night,
ending my week with a big bang,
starting my weekend with a sweet smile.

he came out of msia and drove me around -
he brought me to sembawang park.

we strolled, we sat on a bench -
a bench under a tree.
i looked up, i saw the moon. above the tree.

wow.

we admired the breezy sea in front of us.
we admired the msia lights just right across the sea.

suddenly, there were fireworks.
it was awesome.

almost fulfilling my ultimate date of watching fireworks with my loved one.
almost.

we are just friends. =)

but it has been a really great night.
his thoughtfulness touched my heart.
although he can be really a bastard sometimes!

we purely chatted.
and chatted.
and reminisced the past.

talked about his ex-gfs.
how they hurt him.
blah.

it was a very very very very romantic night.
to me, it is.

and what's more,
spending the night with my first crush.....
it was like, ......

i'm flying to the moon!

2005-02-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

it's back to school - again.

after a week of ~~complete~~ enjoyment,
it's time to put aside all the fun & set my heart to work.

it's hard- esp when i'm enjoyin' myself.
3 days of mahjong.
awesomeee.
i'm an addict NOW.

days of gatherings -
so fun.
so sweet.

i just love my biggie family.

-----------

it's v-day tmr.

same old me.
lonely & unwanted.

sigh.
it has been the same for the past 19 years.

i have my friends!
hahaha.

okay. i......

... helped my friend to date a guy.
so funny.
i feel GOOD abt it.

am i even human?
i like(d) this guy.
for ten long years.
10 long years.
half of my lifetime.

that's great. indeed.

i ... actually said....

" what if i like you?"

" then we celebrate v-day together tmr lor."

" hahahaha! like that whichever girl likes you get to go out w you tmr. you lucky guy!"

" you said what, friends can also celebrate v-day together..."

.... yes, i said that.
sigh.

should i hit myself?
should i?
should i stop telling him to meet her?
should i just cut the crap up?
should i?

.........
i shouldn't.
i'm fighting for my friend's happiness.
i am.

happy valentine people. =)

2005-02-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

hello people!
first of all, thank you Lisa, Josh & Dan for keeping your word and wear red together today!
unlike some shortie.

oops. haha.

it's chinese new year eve & i'm going to have my second reunion dinner.
this is more normal - with table & chairs and a proper steamboat.
heehee.

here, i wish all of ya have a great reunion dinner with ya family & spend lotsa time with em' kay! same goes for non-chinese!!

2005-02-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

WHAT HAPPENED AT MY EARLY REUNION DINNER ON SATURDAY NIGHT.

amanda (my cousin) & my niece, chelsia!

me & chelsia

me & addy

addy & chelsia

chelsia and her permed hair! she's only 4 years old!!!

unique CNY reunion dinner part 1

the unique steamboat part 1

the unique CNY dinner location

the unqiue bonding on a makeshift bed

the unique steamboat part 2

me & surene sis - who doesn't smile much....

...and chose to smile when i was smiling like an idiot.

surene sis is so happy - cos' she finally forced chel chel to take a pic with her!!!

the innocent, pretty, demure niece of mine - chel chel.

reunion dinner part 2

lili jie & addy

me & yili jie - who think she looks better here!

the one behind us - aunt florence, who proved that she's OLDER than us.

eldest aunt-in-law's birthday cake number 1

birthday cake number 2

with pregnant woman, jerene sis around.......

there's some pregnancy talk going on.....

me & nephew, xavier

eldest aunt-in-law at her unique birthday bash!

the kids are lighting the cake!

calling everyone to sing together with the hi fi system behind her!

what is eldest uncle doing?....

blow! blow! chel chel's drooling!

surene sis - the biker!

tan li ling - the poser! i looked as tho i gonna PEE on my pants!!

xavier trusts me.

yili jie's fav plant - that costs 18 bucks each.

ah ma & lili jie choosing "dancing plant"

my ah ma & lili jie

meeh - taken by chel chel. REALLY!!!

the land of flowers

TO MY NIECE..... smiling pretty = .............

my chel chel

....putting your hand up like this again..............

my chel chel -again. see her favourite pose.

another pic of me taken by chel chel, who made me put up my hand the same way she did.

a nice smelling bonsai

fragile but beautiful.

nice plants...

the furry plant that grows - fur.

lili jie and her 38bucks plant.

basically, you can see WE HAD FUN. and yes we did.

2005-02-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

the view from esply - the place where i belong.

it's breath-taking, isn't it?

appreciate the art of CROSS BREEDING.

another dream car of mine....

look at it....

closely.......

and closer!

from where i stand.

the evening sets.

the everlasting love.

the everlasting dream.

the thorns i love.

the big-faced.

in a twinkle of an eye.....

the big-faced oversees esply.

what i yearn for.

trapped. alone.

a child's illusion.

what goes down. (forgot to add NO ENTRY)

the uncertain.

the ghostly reflection.
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sorry for the unpro pics.
i've been on drugs and my hands are weak.

please forgive.

2005-01-31T09:29:00.000+08:00

heritage tour?
i'll give something to spend another day - like this.

2005-01-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

just for LAUGHS!!!

THE DONKEY

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The
animal cried piteously
for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to
do. Finally, he decided
the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered
up anyway; it just
wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help
him. They all grabbed a
shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At
first, the donkey realized
what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to
everyone's amazement he
quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked
down the well. He was
astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt
that hit his back, the
donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it
off and take a step
up.

As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on
top of the animal, he
would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon,
everyone was amazed as
the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and
happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of
dirt. The trick to getting
out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up.
Each of our troubles
is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest
wells just by not
stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a
step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less

NOW --------

The story's sequel .....

The donkey later came back, and bit the farmer who had
tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got
infected, and the farmer
eventually died in agony from septic shock.

MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:

When you do something wrong, and try to cover your
ass, it always comes back
to bite you.

2005-01-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

lately, despite the busy-ness and frantic situation i'm in,
i still read blogs of friends & fellow mass commers.

what did i see: hurtful feelings of self being splashed all over their blogs.
spamming. outbursts of sad stories of your part. literary works.

how i felt: what is blog exactly for?

many times, there's urge to just tag the person how i truly feel.
but after 2 years into mass comm, i'm taught a painful lesson.
"truth always hurt".

and people always misunderstand.
i wonder if it's the age that make people behave childishly.
i used to get spams too.
i used to think i'm being hated.
i used to suspect whoever the one i thought was the spammer.

but seriously, who cares about it?
so what you know it?
are you going to confront the person?
or are you going to go around and tell people how baddie this person is?

UNlESS you can be sooo sure the person is the one who did it.
but again, how sure can you be?

so just let it be that way.
the person wants to have no life to fart about,
let the person be.
the person wants to behave like one kind of an ass,
let the person be.

if you are being maligned for doing something you did not do,
and people whom you thought were nice actually disappoint you,
what can you do?

feel sad? disappointed? what else?

nothing else, my dear.
some people really abuse blogs.
really.

maybe same for me.
i choose not to speak up when i'm not supposed to.
i choose not to interfere when i'm not supposed to.
i choose to shut up when it's time to shut up.

look, why make things complicated?
you have enuff to think about with all the work we are having.
i'm impressed we have the energy to do some other stuff.
i'm impressed i can still blog so far when feat 2 outline is due tmr.

i'm truly impressed.
still, i believe in the people i believe.

i don't wanna start a blog war here.
neither do i want to offend anyone.

anyway, blog is about how you truly feel, and not about spams & scolding people, isn't it?

2005-01-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

this is what kept me in school the whole day.

during lunch - we look we enjoyed it, don't we?

isn't this picture beautiful?

the cap is cute - but not the owner.

parallel session 1 @ 68E

they look sneaky, don't they?

our vintage pose

there's a story behind this pose.

can't you see we are mouthing - "LU-LU"?

kawaii lulu & kelly

lulu is waiting to be slaughtered by me.

frunk requested this. to ANYONE who thinks he's cute in this - think again.

nuff' said about the owner.

why is frunkie afraid of me? cos' i bite!

AND i ended my day with....................

you don't see me...........

NOW you do!!!!!!

HAHA. that's all.
thank you thank you.

2005-01-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

i thank whoever & whatever that grant me such nice classmates.

swensens' in town with -
lins, kelly, clarice, jiewei, lisa, trina, sarah, dan, josh & wils!

it was quite fun - hanging out & chill & EAT!
so scary - the way they "torture" the food, "devour" the food.
omg.

heehee.
after sarah & lisa left, we went shopping!!!
shopping with the guys can be fun you know.
i rather shop WITH them than they shop with ME!
hahaha!

plus they like to "poke" fun of each other.
hahahas.
get what i mean? *winks

after clarice & lins parted, we went toast @taka for a drink.
fairuz & awah came too!
after that, we parted ways -
me & kelly went to far east to shop.
then gelare to have half priced waffles.
Lolx.
should have seen the way we stuffed ourselves man.

okay dokay.
i really love my class.
it's quite sad the year is ending and we soon join new classes.
but all i want to tell em' is, i am indeed very lucky to have them in my class this year.

despite all the tough going, it's always nice to go to school happily knowing you have nice classmates who will make you laugh & be happy.

most of all, thank you kelly & lins. =)

2005-01-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

the love to cook runs in my family.

we love to explore new ways of cooking the same old stuff.
like, macaroni.
people boil em' & eat em' together with sauce.
me?
i fry em'.

fried instant noodles too.

my dad just made fried mee sua.
yummers.

see, we are food lovers.
i think my size says alot right.

cny's coming - at the sight of goodies wherever i go makes me drool.
so now you know why i'm looking forward to cny?

that's why. :)

2005-01-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

tv's done - and whoopie!

break is coming soon soon soon.
cny coming soon soon soon.
as well, deadlines are coming soon soon soon.

still, i sound happy, don't i?
if only i have no OH duty on thursday....
then my hols will officially start from today!

isn't that greaaaat..

lecture was okayy. the usual "cancellation of classes".
oh funny.
me, kelly, dan, jame & PEN.
yes, pen.

shut up dan.
don't luff.

yes. funny. absolutely hilarious.
shh~

hahahaha.......

i've made a list of what i should do. part of it include :

- spring clean
- make some cny goodies
- shopping!
- be a good girl & do your work
- ..........

there are more but i can't recall atm.
still, hols are here for us.
so take it, or give it to meeh!

no one will find hols too many.

esp US. *winks

2005-01-16T01:09:00.000+08:00

ailing's birthday get-to-gether came at the right time.
just when most of us struggle to work against time, this clubbers' night is awesome.

definately brought me closer to some mass commers people.

oh wait, wanna see hot babes shaking their asses?
OR................

wanna see YOUJIN shaking his ASS?

hahahahahahas!
get the pictures from meeh!

oh well. life is getting tougher.
"when the going gets tough", be prepared to sleep less and work more.
last week of school before term break - before the "hols" start nicely with a public holi-fri-day.
yay!

people, let's give our last ( not really lar~) bout of energy before we take a small break from school!
cheerios~

2005-01-08T18:00:00.000+08:00

i wish...................
time can stop for a moment for me to breathe.

i wish...................
life can be simpler than this.

if only.

2005-01-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

blogging is talking to the voice in you.

hello ling in me!

i tell you, stop procrastinating.

erm, but if i don't procrastinate, i don't feel like a mass comma!

don't be crazy!

really. i mean, WE procrastinate, right?

you have a hell lot of stuff to do. remember your new year resolution(s)?

oh, you mean the " i resolute not to procrastinate, to be a good girl, to stay single, to love my friends more, to love my family more, to grow taller, to grow fatter....."

yeah.

are you serious?! you mean, i've to stick to it?!

if not, why work out your resolutions?

resolutions are things you never stick to doing.that's why they are "resolutions"!

..........oh my.

*grins smirkly*